Words from a warriors heart – My burden for America

My burden for America!

My heart is heavy as I see the senseless killings, the pain, the evil in the eyes of the perpetrators. Call it the burden of being a prophet but I feel the pain of the victims and the helplessness and hopelessness of our people. I feel the grieve of a savior that died for us. That was made sin so we can be righteous. That gave His life so we could be free. The victims are not only those killed but the families of the killers that will forever live with the guilt and shame of ‘my kid did that’.

Most importantly I feel the frustrations of a nation reaping the evil it has craved and sowed, but not recognizing that this is pay back. Oh America.

Our country was a land that was dedicated to God from its foundations, a land that has turned away from the very foundation that gave it the audacity to become the greatest nation in the world. A city on the hill that has turned from light to darkness.

America has craved evil and opened its gates to it. America has driven God out of its public and social life and has given evil free reign.

We have propagated evil through TV, movies, evil agenda’s. We have sacrificed our children to moleck through abortion and brought in abominations through legalizing perversion. We now celebrate evil and despise and persecute good.

My heart bleeds every day as I see children on hard medicines for ADHD and behavioral problems. As beautiful as my job is I feel the helplessness of parents looking at me and to drugs to combat the craziness of their children. I see them zooked out in their ipads, iphones, tablets playing the very demonic games that has brought all these craziness in their minds. I see parents too in denial of the effect on the children because they themselves are a product of the crazies.

As a deliverance minister I see the mind boggling oppressions and demonic harassment in children of God. They come from all over the world to our center for deliverance, looking up to Dr Stella to lay hands, wave a magic wand and end the torment they are going through. I see the kind of demonic harassment that could only be found in a horror movies. The boldness of these creatures to torment and harass even the elect. I feel the frustrations of trying to lead them to the only person that can deliver them but the choke hold of the enemy on their minds, blocking the very prerequisite for their deliverance. I feel the frustration of trying to bring people to the place of deep repentance that brings down the mercy of God because we have been robbed of the gift of repentance from years of doctrinal programming. So they struggle with accepting that they are mare humans who as king David said in

Psalm 103: 13 Like as a father pitieth his children, so the Lord pitieth them that fear him. 14 For he knoweth our frame; he remembereth that we are dust. 15 As for man, his days are as grass: as a flower of the field, so he flourisheth. 16 For the wind passeth over it, and it is gone; and the place thereof shall know it no more.

I feel great compassion as I see individuals fighting personal battles that never end. I see families torn apart, terror and fear. And I see the weariness of men and women of God as it becomes more difficult to be true to the word without being label a hater. As more and more sinners come into the church and demand to be accommodated in their sin. How the hearts of true men and women of God bleed as they realize more and more the compromise they make to keep their ministries alive.

What I don’t see is America repenting. When are we going to repent and cry out to the God to help us.

What I don’t see is the ability to repent. Saints we all agree that something needs to be done but looks like we lack the spiritual capacity and fortitude to do anything. We are fighting the individual battles that will have no end because as long as America our great land is sick, it will affect us all. Saints the shootings, the killings, the financial turmoil, the tornadoes, hurricanes, etc are all part of the shaking.

I watch the shows with the blood moons and prophetic predictions and on target analysis of the word and what is to come but I don’t see even these great men of God leading people to repentance. I even watch great men of God from other nations preach heart breaking messages and they end with a clap and standing ovations. When are we going to repent saints? Messages that in other parts of the world will have the crowd on their face crying for hours, we clap.

We have craved evil or turn a blind eye as the world pushes us into the closet as we chase our elusive breakthrough, purpose, next level.

2 Chronicles 7:14 If my people, which are called by my name, shall humble themselves, and pray, and seek my face, and turn from their wicked ways; then will I hear from heaven, and will forgive their sin, and will heal their land.

When are we going to humble ourselves. When will our heart break for our sins, the sins of our land, the sins of our leaders.

Oh that God will give us a broken and contrite heart. Not lip service but true brokenness.

We had a prayer conference at our revival center in Houston as we prayed and cried out, my heart was so heavy and broken that I sobbed uncontrollable but everyone else was standing up and doing the oh God, oh God thing. And the Holy Spirit spoke that the hearts of the people is hard and unbroken. Even as the prophetic word came pouring out amidst my sobbing the people could not break.

Saints when our hearts break, when we turn from our wicked ways, when we drop the humanism or self-aggrandizement, when we allow God to break down our pride, when we realize that only God can fix the mess that we have caused, and He will only hear the prayer of the humble we will cry out for the gift of repentance. If we don’t, judgment is coming and it will start in the house of God.

Maybe we will wait till the persecution intensifies. Oh God help America. Oh Lord have mercy on America our beloved country. Jesus please don’t leave us to our own devises. Draw us to a place of deep repentance Lord that we may cry out for our nation in Jesus name.


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